Monthly Archives: August 2012

I don’t recall ever a time when you felt fine…

It’s been a minute since I’ve updated this blog. Not a lot has happened (worth speaking of) since the last post. A few new developments: today, my sweet kitties, Amelia Montgomery and Olivia Leigh turn 1 year old! Sigh. They’ll always be my sweet baby girls. 🙂

I’m still finding moments of my life to be confusing, frustrating, upsetting, unsettling, and destructive. I’ve been trying to put forth more effort and focus into my work, yet, I’m still quite unhappy with it. Looking for new jobs is difficult – getting an interview is even more so. Hopefully something will give.

I have all of these feelings flowing through me like a rage and I can’t seem to drop them. Discretion is the name of the game; yet.. I’m the one with all of the feelings as far as I know. I know (at least, I think I know/should know) right from wrong. What happens, though, when your heart takes over? What do you do? Also, what makes the heart overtake the brain every time? It’s emotionally unfair. I can’t bring myself to forget or let go. It’s dragging me down but I don’t regret anything. This probably doesn’t make much sense to anyone, but my feelings still exist. They’re fresh. I just wish things were different.

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